Alan Walker - Lost Control Lyrics Meaning

In my opinion, its about a person with a mental disorder or personality disorder. The first verse says that whatever normal people do and like, for him it's not really "normal"
But he still tries his best to blend it but there is always that difference in him that exposes everything.
"You're always watching me fall
Shadows, they like my wall,
Why do I feel so small,I don't know"
So many people has witnessed him fall or break down but doesn't bother helping him, because of that he started building some kind of wall, like a defense mechanism, but when that "wall" breaks, he feels inferior to others, he feels so small, making him depressed and lonely
"So I walk into the dead of nights
Where my mosters like to hide
Chaos feels so good inside, no more"
So he went outside to take loosen up, then suddenly everything around him seems like a blur, which feels good to him, only then to realize that he actually lost control whether to his emotions or other reasons, thus his disorder
"Oh, I'm feeling afraid
But lately I lost my faith
What is love without pain
It ain't home"
He starts feeling scared of himself, and lost hope of treatments and recovering, his family and friends try their best to help him but it is way too painful and way too hard, thus "what is love without pain, it ain't home" if there is love with no pain then that is not normal

And so on and so forth, sorry if its too long, i'm not a psychiatrist so I'm not an expert on this, please tell me if there is something wrong
P.S this is only my opinion