Starset - My Demons Lyrics Meaning

I know all too well what this song is about. At least for me...

I had a disorder that gave me multiple personalaties in my mind. Like...voices. But the voices always told me to go forwards. They kept me from ending up like everyone i hated. They made me feel better, kept me from hurting myself or others, and protected me from things I feared.

When I had these voices, I had a fear they couldn't save me from. The fear that if anyone outside of my mind found out about them...they'd kill my voices, assuming they were bad just because they were voices. Just because i got through my problems in different ways. They'd take me to a hospital, give me a pill, and id never hear my voices again. people hate things that are different. They'd kill them if they'd found out.

So I hide. Hid behind my hero's, and they protected me from my demons. The crimes I could have committed. The words I could have said. I never did. They saved me.

Today I use the memory and personalities of my old friends as characters. I now profit as a writer...but....this sing still gets to me.

They were not my demons, no matter what others thought. Others didn't understand! They only knew what they were told.

Those voices....I controlled them. They spike when i let them. We were one in the same, and I wanted to be so.

I found later...they were manifestations of the friends i never had, made to help cope with my loneliness and depression. I needed a family and they were it.

I wasn't insane, but...people would have thought I was.

They werent my demons.
They protected me from becoming my demons.

And even if this song isnt about this....it definitely speaks to me in that sense.