NF - Paralyzed Lyrics Meaning

For me the song just explained how Depression and DID or Multiple Personality Disorder works in a person's life.I was diagnosed with the disorder and it really kills me inside.

Depression is when you lost all will to live.You may want to live today and die tomorrow. Living becomes frightening and you just want to end it all.

With DID you feel like your at the edge, since u have a lot of personality you can't understand yourself. You feel paralyzed. You become confused about many things including
your feelings, surroundings and how people treat you. It makes you wonder why the world is moving yet you feel stuck.

"When did I become so numb?"
"When did I lose myself?"

"All the words that leave my tongue feels like it came from someone else"

"Where is the real me?"
Im lost and it kills me inside"

"When did I become so cold?"
"Where are my feelings?"